2 months, 3 years

Two months, I have been here for two months! Time is going by so quickly that I can’t event believe it! There are still so many things I want to do while in Florida and each day I realize that I am inching a little closer to graduating from college! Then I can’t believe that I have been in college for 3 years now. People are starting to reveal themselves more to me and I’m learning and realizing who my best friends are and how blessed I am to have them in my life! I no longer regret coming to Florida but I still miss my family, my friends and cheering and dancing each and every day.

 I saw a quote the other day that said “Nothing will ruin your 20’s more than thinking you should have your life together already.” THIS IS ME! THIS IS SO TRUE! I’ve only been in my 20’s for a year and a half but I get so stressed and freaked out when I try to figure out what I want to do and how I will get to something that is a year away. I have no idea what I want to do after I graduate in May. Actually I know what I want to do; I just don’t know what I want to do first. At this point my options are grad school at Oklahoma State, Kansas State, or Auburn University; stay in Kansas and audition for Chiefs Cheerleader; keep auditioning for Princess Tiana at Disney World; or apply for a Professional Internship at Disney. One day I’ll figure it out, but for now I’m just gonna keep enjoying Disney World!

It is still absolutely crazy to me that I am finishing up college and I think about it all the time! It’s been 3 years since I met Jasmine on Facebook and we clicked and became great friends. It’s been 3 years since I met Taylor at camp and we were put in the same family and we still call each other sisters. It’s been 3 years since I started to become “a grown up.” I’m really excited for whatever is in store for me after college: getting  and decorating an apartment, possibly moving to another state, having a job and making my own money (even though I kinda don’t like working), and just meeting new people and experiencing new things and new places. I want it to come soon but I don’t at the same time. 

Part of me, however, doesn’t want college to end. I am definitely looking forward to graduation and how great of an accomplishment is (I still can’t believe it’s happening. I feel like I just graduated high school last summer), decorating my cap, new senior pictures, and finally saying I did it! Sorry, tangent, where was I. . ? Oh right, college: for the last three years Ottawa University has given me so many absolutes in life, sort of like a comfort and cushion.  I had somewhere to live, I knew lots of people, I knew (had an idea) of what I would be doing, I was cheering and dancing, and I was having fun! I think I don’t want it to end because just like high school everyone will be going in different directions. I don’t know how I’m going to feel in a year when I have to plan a trip to see my friends; I want them to always be down the hall or in the building next door to me. Or when I won’t get to take pictures with them in our uniforms every Saturday. Not having a cheer uniform to put on every Saturday night will completely destroy me since I’ve cheered for the last 8 years! I don’t want to grow distant from people that I have become so close with over the last 3 years. I guess that’s just part of what you sign up for when you make friends in college and I’m not ready for it yet, but I’m so proud of all the friends I’ve made and I am excited for their post OU lives will hold!  

I’m gonna be an emotional wreck at graduation (and probably next semester) and I have no idea what is going to happen in the next 8ish months but strangely I’m really looking forward to it all! Get ready everyone cus it’s gonna be a fun and crazy ride! 

Until next time which will hopefully be a little happier, 

Blessings, love, and sparkles!